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[Electra]

The blonde blinked wide-eyed as she listened to what her companion said, about how he felt that his life was a lie. How could it feel like that? She didn’t understand, but she felt bad for her new friend as she watched him seem to disintegrate right in front of her eyes. He seemed different and tears had formed at the corners of his eyes, something that made her frown. She placed a hand on his shoulder, offering him a small, warm smile as she tried to turn him to face her. “Hey, hey…” Her voice was soothing, soft and gentle, a tone she often used when helping her friends. “You aren’t a joke, Ald. You’re my friend, and whatever it is you feel, I’m willing to listen and help in any way I can. Okay?” She continued, nodding her head as if to decide for the young man. She couldn’t stand seeing other people downtrodden, and she felt that it was her duty to make them happy again if such an occasion transpired.

That being said, her new friend seemed determined to get intoxicated as he continued pouring drinks for himself. His face reddened as the alcohol took its effect on him, and she looked at him with sideways glances every so often as he continued drinking the wine like it was water. She began to notice how he stared at her, and he suddenly stated that she was a beautiful woman, something that caught her completely off-guard. Her eyes widened and a small pink tint covered her cheeks at the compliment, but she waved him off uneasily, acting as if she didn’t believe such a thing as opposed to proving that she was uncomfortable with such an advancement. “Well thank you, Ald.” She said warily, speaking slower than usual as she assessed his situation.

Well, he was far from sober, that much was obvious.

He regressed all the more with the more they drank, and although Ellie was fairly intoxicated, not helped by her earlier drunkenness, her companion seemed to be much more affected by it than she did. Her attention was grabbed when he said her name, and as she turned to face him curiously she noticed that he was inching closer to her. Her reactions felt much slower than she would have liked, and as Ald approached to kiss her, she barely managed to move before he pressed his lips against hers. She could sense how embarrassed and awkward the blonde felt, and the alcohol always drove people to do strange things; to that much she could testify for sure. She gently and firmly placed her hands on his shoulders, eyes fluttering open as she broke the kiss, albeit in a gentle, non-hurtful manner. She didn’t wish to trample on her friend, but she didn’t return his obvious romantic feelings for her. “Ald.” She looked at him, not letting go of his shoulders as their faces were kept close, but mainly for her to express her seriousness. “I know that the alcohol is probably taking control. But it’s okay.” She smiled at him, tilting her head to the side as she leant back, keeping one hand reassuringly on his shoulder as she removed the other.

“We’re friends, dear. As sweet as you are, I don’t feel that way for you. And I’m sure that you don’t like me that way either, it’s just the alcohol talking.” She felt awful for saying as much, but she didn’t wish to hurt him by going along with this and dumping him afterwards. She wanted to keep him as a friend, because she enjoyed his company.

[ALDUIN KOU]

 I'M WAKING UP TO ASH AND DUST   

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Why was love so difficult? It was his first time denouncing it. The magical moment lasted for a few seconds and yet it... It already ended? Was this all his love was worth? ''It's not the drink... I'm really serious...'' He looked at her in the eye seriously although his face was red. He felt deeply hurt when she assumed that he was just joking around. He was really serious yet he knew that she already have someone else. Fate was cruel and Alduin could not take this anymore. The moment she pulled him away his heart broke into a million of pieces. It was his first proposition and he was going to remember this moment drunk or not.

At this moment he felt like that it was going to be the end of the world. It felt like that the entire world was falling on him. This pain inside of him...A knife through his heart. He could not bear it. ''I really... I really like you...I like your presence , I like your personality , I like your friendliness... You think it's just a joke? This is my first time proposing to someone but it's ok if you think it's just a joke...'' The redness upon his face disappeared as he pushed her aside and looked down. The tears almost came out although he tried to hold them back. He is the heir of Balbadd and was not permitted to cry. Especially not over a simple cause such as love though he could not hold it back anymore. It was stronger then him. ''This is all but a joke to you...'' He ran outside the house and into the garden as it suddenly began to rain. The weather was in contrast with his mood as he looked up and closed his eyes. He breathed heavily. He needed some space and time. He was so naive. She said that he was not a joke yet she did the complete opposite. She did not take him seriously when he needed her to be the most. For a moment there, he though that his life was going to be perfect. That he was going to find his source of heat. That he would no longer need to bear this solitude and loneliness everyday.He was ready for everything...

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[Electra]

What her blonde friend said next really surprised Ellie. He stated that he was being deadly serious about this, and she didn’t quite know what to say to him. Although she was would never truly admit it to herself, let alone anybody else, she had already met a young man that she was well and truly smitten with, and even if that love backfired on her, she would be too broken to attempt anything else. Ald was a friend to her, she liked his company and his quirky nature, but it seemed that all he could think of for her was love. It made her feel terrible as she watched his once happy expression turn into one of sheer sadness and rejection, and for the first time in her life she couldn’t stand having turned away a guy. Her beauty had attracted many, especially as of late during her travels, but none of them had piped her interest enough and she never felt remorse for leaving them in the dust after stringing them along.

What was it about this town that was so different to the others she had visited? Just to make matters worse, the blonde male continued to state that he really liked her, everything about her to boot. She lowered her head in shame, feeling truly hateful of herself right now for crushing someone so badly. Why did it affect her now so much, and not with other men? He stated that she thought this was all a joke, that he was a joke and that his feelings for her were laughable, and pushed her away harshly. It wasn’t hard, but it made her roll back against the chair with her eyes wide, not able to truly comprehend what was happening. She saw how tears formed in his crimson eyes, and she felt utterly at a loss as to what she could do. “I’m sorry, I didn’t know… I didn’t think… I… you’re not a joke! It’s just that alcohol… does strange things, I just thought… but I was wrong!” Her speech came out in stutters as she tried to make sense of it all in her head, but more than likely Ald would stop listening to her as she babbled on. How could she make this better? Just how could she after breaking somebody so badly?

He pushed himself out of the chair and ran through the large house, heading for the back. “Ald!” She cried after him, pushing herself away from the table to follow him. “I’m sorry! I made a mistake! Please come back!” She shouted as she ran, following the direction that the youth went in his own home. As he barrelled out into the garden, it started to rain, and Ellie stood at the back door holding the frame as he stood with his back to her. She would make matters worse if she pressed the issue, but she couldn’t just walk away. She didn’t usually make such bonds of friendship so soon after meeting someone, she would pretend to, but she never actually did. She hesitated at the door, magenta eyes fixed on the figure of the blonde out in the garden as she bit her lip and mulled her thoughts over in her head. After giving it a small amount of time, no less than a minute, however, she took off out into the garden, ignoring how her hair and clothes were soaked in no time. She placed her hands on the back of Ald’s shoulders firmly, her mouth set in a dead frown at her own stupidity. She said nothing, she couldn’t, but she wanted to prove somehow that she would be there, just not as the figure that he had been hoping for. She hoped that it would still be enough…

[ALDUIN KOU]

 I'M WAKING UP TO ASH AND DUST   

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''Yes it's the alcohol...'' He thought to himself before grasping his fists even tigher. This was not a good time to talk to him right now. Her apologies only made his pain deeper. Was she trying to put salt on the wound she just inflicted or what? Alduin let himself being tramped in rain as he ignored the comments of Ellie. He did not want to ear anything right now. He did not want to think anything. He needed a calm mind. ''If only I could erase my memories and make it go blank... '' He murmured.

''Thank you... I'm fine now!'' He wiped away his tears before turning around to face Ellie with a smile. It was a fake one of course since underneath it hid only depression and sorrow that he did not want to show. A cold shell for his real personality to hide underneath. And so it has always come down to this whenever things did not work out. Alduin had gotten used to be the second choice of people by now. He had no strength nor will to complain or to try out his chance again anymore. He was weak and he felt tired... ''I'm happy to know that you'll always be friend. You can stay here if you want... I...I need to go...'' He tried to keep his fake smile before looking away. He wasn't going to be able to keep up the act much longer although he was a proffesional at it. The royal family of Balbadd have always lived like this. There was no one to warm or love but only lies and solitude. It was the first thing that he was taught ever since he was a kid. All Alduin ever wanted was a partner that he could settle down with. A female that he could confess all his darkest secrets to. Someone he could love and understand his feelings. ''Guess its too much to ask...'' He said with a grim tone as the sound of the thunder resonated throughout the rain. A sudden flash of light... A trail of dust... And he was gone...

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[Electra]

She always did manage to mess things up in style. Not only was her new friend obviously broken inside, but she had been the one to make it so much worse by stamping on his wounds and making them worse. She could only stand and watch as he iced over and pretended to be fine, and when he stated that he had to leave. Maybe it was too much to ask for anybody to find something in life, perhaps. Alduin couldn’t find love, and Ellie couldn’t find true friendship.

Feeling like she should have left long ago, the blonde stood holding an arm as the rain soaked her to the skin, but she couldn’t feel it as it dripped down her mostly bare figure. She trudged slowly from the garden and out to the front of the house, leaving it behind as she guessed that her friend didn’t even want to see her anymore. Sigh… maybe she should just give up with people… she trudged across the street dragging her feet, not wishing to look back in case she felt the urge to go back and try to make things right. She had tried that already and it only destroyed her friend more, so she just decided to live and let live, to leave Ald to his own devices and hope that he would remain her friend in spite of all she had done...

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